Unbearable Pain: My Struggle With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches
It was a gloomy Monday morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense sensation bloomed behind my right eye. This was followed by quick shocks, like electric shocks. As each class came and went, the pain subsided and then came back with increased force. Four times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took ibuprofen, but the pain remained unrelenting.
The attacks returned repeatedly that fall, and once more in spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-on pain in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.
This condition often start with intense pain behind one eye that persists for several hours.
Approximately one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the condition, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks typically start with sudden, severe agony around a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in periodic cycles; others have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of extended symptom-free periods.
What unites sufferers is the intensity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate found 64% of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.
Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like many triggers, made things worse. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.
Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.
Nevertheless, the inability to plan life around erratic pain took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.
Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The first description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.
Historical healing records suggest unusual remedies for what some observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a separate condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.
It was a European doctor who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.
Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by global headache committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel which supplies blood to the head. Prominent experts in treating the condition note this.
In 1998, researchers published the results of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a prominent journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.
Despite such progress, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.
Neurologists say delays in diagnosing and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary head pain conditions, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But many first go to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.
Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from the condition for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. I remember calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a calm advisor talked me through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack eased.
Official guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug administered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the attacks of some people.
But leading neurologists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined clinical process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the bout dictates the treatment.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with acute treatment only. Longer or more intense bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.
The official guidelines need updating to reflect a